I hate the 4th of May because it is the day I lost my mom and my 2 uncles

I'm so sorry to hear that. Losing loved ones can be incredibly difficult, especially when multiple losses occur on the same day. It's important to remember that it's okay to grieve and feel sadness, but also to take care of yourself and seek support from others during this difficult time. If you ever need to talk or share your feelings, please don't hesitate to reach out.