Found this in an old room in my 50 bedroom house

What does this sound like the person thinks or what they mean by the song of poem which ever it maybe. What does the word Lamestin mean or is it some kind of code. I also found a journal

You called me home this past week
After years of war
But it still rages
I have something I must say
Though you sent me though lamestin
I was angered all the more
Though it was my fault
A crusade it was
But I must now say

What was it really worth
All the tears shed for nothing
What was it really worth
All the complaint that written on paper
Oh, what was it really worth
Yes one might try to saya
It was worth everything
Look back and see
There was nothing
There was nothing

They say far from home may seem
But I say what was it really worth
I could have stood
I could fought valiantly
Look those who did
What was it really worth
All the tears spent in vain
Over wrong things
Look my comrades in arms
Look at the other men in arms
Oh, what really worth
I could have forgiven
I could have agreed

to a truce

But what was it really worth
All the lives lost in battle
All the families torn apart
Oh, what was it really worth

Lamestin, in this context, seems to be a made-up word. It could either be a name or have a deeper meaning specific to the person who wrote this. Without further context, it is difficult to determine its exact meaning.

The person writing this seems to be reflecting on their experiences in war and questioning the value of the conflict. They express anger and regret over their own actions and the overall consequences of the war. They ponder whether everything that was sacrificed was truly worth it and express a sense of disillusionment. They also mention forgiveness and the possibility of finding common ground instead of resorting to violence.

The journal you found might provide more insight into the writer's thoughts and emotions. It could contain further explanations or personal reflections that shed light on the meaning behind this poem/song.

All give you the first page infor

Certainly! Please provide the information from the first page of the journal, and I'll do my best to analyze it for you.

To day to morrow or what ever but actually it happened to day. I caused a bit of trouble, no my Lord sir ominer has put me in the crusade. Though I would not have to go unless I wanted too, I now must. But my Lord sir ominer has told me to write him anything I wish. The thought is wrong but still I wish not to go.

Thank you for providing the information from the first page of the journal. Based on this entry, it seems that the writer is reflecting on an event that happened on the same day. They mention causing trouble and being put in a crusade by their Lord, named Sir Ominer. The writer expresses reluctance to go on this crusade and indicates that they had the impression that participation was optional. However, they are now obligated to go.

It is noteworthy that the writer mentions their Lord instructing them to write anything they wish. This suggests a level of trust or openness between the writer and Sir Ominer. The writer acknowledges the conflicting emotions they feel, as they express the belief that the idea of having to go on the crusade is wrong but also admit that they do not wish to go.

This entry gives us further insight into the writer's mindset and their initial thoughts and concerns about the crusade mentioned in the poem/song.

To day to morrow or what ever but actually it happened to day. I caused a bit of trouble, no my Lord sir ominer has put me in the crusade. Though I would not have to go unless I wanted too, I now must. But my Lord sir ominer has told me to write him anything I wish we'll away. The part I was involved in causing a bit of trouble I do believe was wrong. but still I wish not to go.

Thank you for providing additional information from the first page of the journal. From this entry, we learn that the writer caused some trouble, which they now believe was wrong. It seems that their actions have led to their involvement in the crusade, despite originally thinking they had a choice in the matter. They express a reluctance to go on the crusade, reiterating their desire not to participate.

The writer mentions their Lord, Sir Ominer, instructing them to write anything they wish, indicating a sense of trust or allowance to express their thoughts and emotions freely.

It appears that the writer is grappling with conflicting feelings. They acknowledge their own wrongdoing in causing trouble but still hold a strong desire not to go on the crusade.

This further emphasizes the writer's internal struggle and the complex emotions they are experiencing regarding their role in both causing trouble and their impending involvement in the crusade.