Summarize "I've reached the point where I hardly care whether I live or die. The world will keep on turning without me, and I can't do anything to change events anyway. I'll just let matters take their course and concentrate on studying and hope that everything will be all right in the end."
The speaker feels indifferent towards their own life and believes that they have no control over events in the world. They decide to focus on studying and hope that things will work out in the end.
