Summarize "It’s a wonder I haven’t abandoned all my ideals, they seem so absurd and impractical. Yet I cling to them because I still believe, in spite of everything, that people are truly good at heart. It’s utterly impossible for me to build my life on a foundation of chaos, suffering and death. I see the world being slowly transformed into a wilderness, I hear the approaching thunder that, one day, will destroy us too, I feel the suffering of millions. And yet, when I look up at the sky, I somehow feel that everything will change for the better, that this cruelty too shall end, that peace and tranquility will return once more."

Despite the chaos and suffering in the world, the speaker holds onto their ideals and belief that people are inherently good at heart. They cannot fathom a life built on chaos, suffering, and death, and even though they see the world slowly turning into a wilderness and feel the suffering of millions, they hold onto hope that everything will change for the better, that cruelty will end, and peace and tranquility will return.