9, 8 1 20 5, 25 15 21, 9 23 19 8, 25 15 21, 23 15 12 4, 10 21 19 20, 12 5 1 22 5, 13 5, 1 12 15 14.

what am I saying in numerical code

The numerical code represents the alphabetical positions of each letter. Converting the numbers back into letters, the message is: "i ate you, you soulmate".