Found this in an old room in my 50 bedroom house

What does this sound like the person thinks or what they mean by the song of poem which ever it maybe. What does the word Lamestin mean or is it some kind of code.

You called me home this past week
After years of war
But it still rages
I have something I must say
Though you sent me though lamestin
I was angered all the more
Though it was my fault
A crusade it was
But I must now say

What was it really worth
All the tears shed for nothing
What was it really worth
All the complaint that written on paper
Oh, what was it really worth
Yes one might try to saya
It was worth everything
Look back and see
There was nothing
There was nothing

They say far from home may seem
But I say what was it really worth
I could have stood
I could fought valiantly
Look those who did
What was it really worth
All the tears spent in vain
Over wrong things
Look my comrades in arms
Look at the other men in arms
Oh, what really worth
I could have forgiven
I could have agreed

with our differences

But instead, I was sent through lamestin
A treacherous journey, filled with anger
Despite it being my own fault
It was a crusade, a mission
But now, I have something to say

What was it all for?
The tears shed, the complaints written
Was it truly worth it?
Some might argue that it was
That it meant everything
But looking back, there was nothing
There was nothing gained

They say being far from home feels unbearable
But I ask, what was it really worth?
I could have stayed, I could have fought bravely
Just like those who did
What was it all for?
The tears spent in vain
Over trivial matters
Look at my comrades in arms
Look at the other men who fought
Oh, what was it really worth?
I could have forgiven
I could have found common ground

The word "lamestin" does not have a commonly known meaning. It could be a made-up word or potentially a code or personal reference known to the author. Without further context, its specific meaning remains unclear.

Ah I found another paper with code words the word lamestin means punishment of chastisment

Thank you for providing additional context. If the word "lamestin" is indeed used to mean "punishment or chastisement" as per the code words you found, it adds a layer of understanding to the overall message of the poem. It suggests that the author feels resentful or angry about being subjected to a punishment or chastisement, potentially related to their involvement in the war or a personal matter. It could explain their frustration and questioning of whether the sacrifices made during the war were truly worth it.